Tuesday, April 29, 2014

A Heartbreaking Sadness That Persists

My family and I recently lost one of our beloved corgis. Jasper was only four years old, and he died very suddenly of an illness that escalated so quickly there was nothing we could do. We had to let him go.

Himself and I were with him at the emergency vet when he died. It was late on a rainy Sunday night (isn't that always when emergencies occur?) The day before, he'd played with Georgette in the yard and now he was gone. We were shocked and heartbroken. We expected to have him for at least 10 more years.

He was my shadow. I was his beloved. He followed me everywhere and nestled beside me when I read in the evenings. He lay beside me when I worked on the computer. His favorite place was my lap. I adored him.

It's been a bit over three weeks and only now can I even type this. We are still missing him, but we are slowly getting used to a new normal. Georgette no longer runs to the door when she hears it open, thinking he will be there. She always gnawed on his head when he tried to come inside.

Tiny Girl made this collage of photos a few days after he died.

He was handsome, he was kind, he was obedient, he was loyal, he was loved.

 photo signature_zpsbb142848.png


  1. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved friend.

  2. Ellen, I'm heartbroken for you. Our pets are truly family members, and to lose your beautiful Jasper so suddenly and unexpectedly is so sad. My thoughts are with you. When the time is right, you might want to pick up a copy of Good Dog. Stay. by Anna Quindlen. I wrote about her book after we lost our Mr. O'Malley: http://anenchantedcottage.blogspot.com/search?q=good+dog.+stay.
    I found you through Common Ground's Be Inspired and also wanted to tell you that I love your white cabinets. I also did a post about that in the past, when we painted our dark brown cabinets white. And our kitchen is windowless, so you know that made a huge difference in brightening up the space!
    Thinking of you,

  3. So sorry to hear about your loss. I completely understand how heartbreaking losing a pet can be. I still often think of my first "baby," the cat who adopted me. He died over 17 years ago, but he taught me so much, and his loving and funny spirit is still close by. The day we buried him there were amazing rainbows, and I think of him when I see rainbows.

  4. I`m truly saddened by your lost! I really don`t know how would I cope without my little dogie! They sure are humans best friends! Jasper was such a cutie! I hope yous pain and your family will go away soon.


I love reading comments! And I appreciate the time you take to leave them. Thanks!